Healthy by 60 Something Nice Everyday

Christmas is over. The spirit is still in the air. 

What is on the agenda?

1. Three week hiatus from social media.

2. New Years
3 Catching movies.
4. Exercising daily.

Will the three week hiatus work? Not sure? 

• Too much browsing on Facebook causes depression.
• Too much browsing on social media takes away from productive time.
• Balance between browsing and flow. 

New Year's Resolutions?

1. Have a meaningful work environment.

2. Travel

3. CBO classes and social work program

4. Healthy food

5. Blogging or journal.

6. Talk less and listen more.

7. Meaningful interactions 

8. Model joy.

9. Give back

10. Focus on others over self.

11. Something nice everyday. 

Reflection, refreshment, trust, faith, adventure, courage.  Something nice everyday. Being deliberate. 

Healthy by 60 Holiday Musings

So many holiday musings.

Holidays make me sad. I function from  a gratitude perspective to keep above the sad.

1. I have my teeth
2. I have my mom
3. I have my siblings.
4. I adore my inlaws
5. My niece and nephew are fine.
6. I love my cat.
7. I have friends.
8. I have a good job.
9. I keep growing and learning.
10. I have a roof, funds, and support.
11. I have a spiritual foundation grounded in God's goodness.


Sad
1. Looking back
2. Missing those who have passed on.
3. Missing feeling safe.


Pick up the Pace.
1. Gratitude
2. Facebook can make one feel sad.
3. We reap what we sow.
4. We make a difference when we reach out to do so.
5. There is always someone who needs support.

Food? Well, too much Christmas candy and cookies but watching the food intake. Ordered Jenny  Craig to jump start every other day. And Spirulina which also helps start the day off right.

Christmas is too much worrying about who may not be around next year instead of enjoying now.
Blessings abound if we just relax and accept them.

Memories are good and continue to be made. No need to get caught in stinking thinking as Joyce would call it. Look up. Believe. There is magic to be had!!

Health By 60 Twice Today

Missed two days and believe me I can tell it. It is good to purge our thoughts and feelings daily and start clean the next day. Week end of nothing. Did not get out or do much of anything. Maybe too much rest and staying in PJs but it is nice to have a break.

Well what did I accomplish during my two day me fest?
1. Recharged
2. Watched a lot of Christmas movies, binged watched The Crown, and watched a couple of Al Brooks movies that were totally new to me.
3. Read about the fine line between leadership and depression/anxiety. Examples in the book,
Ted Turner, Lincoln, MLK, Churchill. Interesting that strong leaders who functioned well in crisis possess these traits.
4. Processed Golden Globes.

What I Did not Do
1. Exercise
2. Get out in sunshine.
3. Call my mom
4. Get my nails done.


What I Am Trying to Decide
1. Do I stay or do I go?
2. What is the next step in my career?
3. How can I buy a house and still live in Bay Area?
4. Christmas is changing
5. Sometimes I feel like people take me for granted.

I like being the second in command.
I would like to move up.
I hope I did not cut apart my chances by moving but I had to get out of there.
I need to mend my relationship with a close colleague.

Being Professional
1. Dress it
2. Talk it
3. Walk it
4. Live it

Ordered my Jenny Craig food to get back on track.
Will start grocery shopping again.
Want to move fast and get lots done.

I have a lot to offer but I don't think people can see this in me.

How many times did I say me and I? How much have I done to reach out?

I want a new recliner.

When You are Too Tired to Write. Day Eight

What a week it has been. Not sure I have gotten any closer to being healthy at 60 but I do like that I am reflecting on the days. And putting together a water bottle each morning that contains fruit. A place to begin!!!! More water.

Lots o holiday treats but now the times are winding down. That is good. Peace on Earth good will to me. Not sure if I felt that way today totally, but I do think I showed some strength and reserve.

So time will tell. If I had my druthers, I would posture more and act more professional. But is is hard because that is not me. I am a talking and nice person. But I do think I would be taken more seriously if I had a bit more reserve. And worked on my personal appearance too.

I want to keep going and end with a great career. Time will tell. For now.... I am tired.

Two pieces of toast for breakfast. with cantaloupe and chorizo
A ham sandwich for lunch.
Two cookies.
Burger, onion strings, and beans. Too much GREASE.I feel awful. Remind me not to do this again.

Next week: Make soup!!!

Healthy Before 60 Day Seven Making It A Happy Day

A tired day today. Ready for the holiday and not quite sure of the days I have off for Christmas. And today, I ate: ham, bread, and ham. Then a good supper.Two eggs and some cereal for breakfast.

So I think that was pretty good.

And I just saw a job posting that I am strongly considering. A chance to move on and I would know exactly what to expect. Going to check it out. Only downfall, the commute would be very long. And I really like it here. I hate to leave. I would just have to prime myself.

Not sure how it would all fall out. Tomorrow is the meeting at work. And so funny I wrote about Grandma yesterday. Tessa posted the best picture of her today on FB. So cool..

My heart goes out to the Ventura peeps. The fire and smoke and so much. Ready for a nice, quiet, Christmas week end.

Well, I am gong to go to bed tonight and ask God to talk to me in my dreams.

Healthy Before 60 Day Five: Grandma and Cats.

Well hello. It has been a good day. Today we had a Christmas party. And we had a lot of fun. Still crazy politics going on at work but I am trying to look past them and focus on the positive. Sometimes it is hard. People are strange. I hope it all works out ok. Sometimes I wonder if I come on too strong? But I am real and myself. So that is all that matters.

On my mind today:

• Codependency and work
• Can one be codependent with family?
• Finding a nice guy who likes to go to plays and watch movies, dinner, smart. I think it would be nice to find someone like this. I would be very happy. And I think it would make me a better person. 
• Am I finished with Christmas? Still need: My name, Richard, Chris, and Jared's birthdays; stocking stuffers. Then I am done. Whew! Not bad.
• I want a new black dress.
• I have been accused of being a bully at times.  I am pretty direct, but I would not say I am a bully.  I am pretty collaborative. I think one has it in his head I am a bully because I came down pretty hard last year on a pet employee. I also think the response was one sided due to the people involved. I came down hard because of a lot of inequity. But I guess I need to check my style. I don't mean to bully but I do take responsibility seriously and don''t have a lot of patience with people who do not want to work. And that is usually when I get vigilant. Anyway, as you can tell, this is on my mind. Not because I am afraid, but because I want to work through it and blow it over. I don't like anyone to feel uncomfortable.  If people had done their job right last year, this would not even be an issue. Oh well. Sometimes I think I am functioning in the Twilight Zone. My achilles heel I guess. 
• What else? Roy Moore was defeated. That is good. 
• Christmas is coming. Academy Awards. I miss LA. I miss the world down there, but not the heat. And so sad about the fires. I like the seasons here but I love Hollywood!!!! And KTLA!! And the Academy Awards!!!
• Oh yes? What about the food?
• Well, I drank some protein drink for breakfast.
• Then I had lunch at the party and tried to eat sensibly. Avoided the dessert and had a cookie. Some candy. For dinner, a frozen pizza slice and the rest of the Chinese last night. Not really healthy? But right now my goal is to maintain. 

So what do I know?

I see so much potential in some of our staff and I so enjoy working with them and taking care of them all. I think it is sad that we have to walk on eggshells due to the other side. But i guess there is no true perfection. I just like to motivate and support people to grow.  I would still like the chance to run my own. But i have to get bigger. I have to brace up and take some responsibility for myself. I have let myself go a bit and I need to clean this up. And time will tell. My new man who likes movies and the theatre and my new self who is a superintendent. Not going for low but going for challenge. Maybe that would be better for me. 

What Do I Know For Sure?

1. People do their best to be their best within their framework.

2. We cannot expect what we do not teach.

3. The best lesson is to model.

4.  Principles before personalities is always the best answer.

5. We don't know what we don't know.

6. Karma will always come visit. We need to keep ourselves intact and keep our own backyard clean before we look at another's.

7. There are a lot of good people in the world who like to have fun and focusing on the positive is the best! 

8. Time heals all

9. Honesty is the best policy. Honest but not always brutally honest.

10. Leaders have a responsibility to rise above.

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My Cat Has It Right

1. When I don't get what I want, I just drop a poop and suddenly I have attention. Sometimes you have to make a statement.

2. Sleep is important. Stretching is important. Find someone who will give you lots of attention. 

3. When I am not happy, you will know it by the look in my eye.

4. I am the ultimate ruler of the world.

5. Pat me 20 times and I will relax. Massage is good.

6. I need a balance of food and snacks.

7. Do not rock my world without giving me fair warning. 

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And the list goes on:

What do I want for Christmas?

1. A Keurig

2. A new black dress.

3. That is about it. 

4. Peace on Earth.

5. A new man with interest in movies and theatre.

This is my Grandma. She was a wonderful lady. A hard worker, but so kind and loving and giving. I would love to be just like her. I loved her so much. Her birthday was December 5.  She passed away at the age of 98. She was a farm lady but so much fun and spoiled us all so much. I miss her and try to model myself after her: her kindness, her grace, her giving, her work ethic. She worked hard, five kids, and not a lot.  But fun and so caring. Gardened, farm lady.She even used to preach  Loved her animals. Loved her grandkids. Loved the people she took care of. When she said, "Tracy D" I knew it was time to take notice. Happy Birthday   Grandma!!! 

Healthy Before 60 Day Four

Well, I am keeping up with the journaling. Today was an ok day. I am kind of in a panic mode tonight. Scared about the future. Feel like someone is going to pull the rug out from under me. I think it is partially habit and partially due to no Roots. I am making roots. But I am in a situation where I try but I so feel like a fish out of water.

And I feel like these people who are so very immature and so green think they have the answers to all of the questions. And it is scary because I think they are being heard. Or maybe they want it to seem that way. I just feel like I want to climb up on the table and say,, let's go!!! Let's make some differences. Let's stop spinning and make some inroads.

I want a chance to do this. To move something along again. I think of all of the missed opportunities. And the posturing and the growth. Oh well, it is all relative. But today was ok.

I had protein drink for breakfast and some cookies. Probably about 500 calories.

Lunch: Chili and crackers and two slices of cheese.

Snack: A Tamale

Some candy

and then the craving for Chinese took over. I stopped at a new place and it was certainly not worth the calories. But i ate it anyway. There is nothing better than some good Chinese once in a while. I want to find some friends to have dinner with. Socialize. Exercise with. I miss my old step aerobic friends. We did not know how good we had it back then. It was special.

Dropped the gym and now I have to pay for three months. That sucks. Jazzercise is not even easy anymore. I need to start an exercise regime. I left work today at 4:00 and it was nice. I was home by 5:30. I like that. I am tired of being a workaholic and am not sure if I am appreciated. But I guess I am not there to be appreciated but to work.

It is just a sense of disturbance. It is either me or just fit. I just want a place where I can make a difference and really make some growth with a minor portion of pushback. Not sure that is ready for that. I think he is too invested right now in PSI and the posturing people. Not sure this is building longevity or sustainability. I am losing interest.

And Yon Cassius is waiting to pounce. And that is fine. I would rather go than stay even though I like the people. I am kind of tired of the coffee clache.

Oh well, this has nothing to do with me. I ordered Christmas presents. My mom is really struggling with her memory at times. I wish she could get out more. I think it would be good for her. Wish a job for my brother. For all intents and purposes, life is good. I should not ever complain.

And so we wait. And see what will happen between now and May. That is the guideline. And Roy Moore was defeated. I love it!!!! There is some justice for women!!!!!